Today is my 25th birthday. But it's also 11:50, so as you read this, it's most likely that yesterday or any number of days past was my 25th birthday. It's also likely you've heard me worry for the last seven months about what getting to 25 with this collection of neurons and relationships and experiences and debts might mean. For now, I'm choosing to just be glad to be here, with whatever degree of acknowledgement necessary to the times I never thought I'd make it past 19. or 21. Or 24. I'm letting all those worries and experiences and battles with my body be like the fallen coastal redwoods I saw while on vacation with my family last week: something that needs to break down slowly so that they can nourish all of the good things growing from the same ground for years to come.
It can be hard for me to find reasons to celebrate myself, but I'm working to be gentler on myself and on creating the life I want for myself. Also, totally out of character, I did not make a plan for my birthday weeks in advance. Or even days in advance. With the day all but gone, I still don't know what to do for my birthday with anyone outside my immediate family. While I work on that, could you still do one of these things to commemorate my 25th trip around the sun*?
It can be hard for me to find reasons to celebrate myself, but I'm working to be gentler on myself and on creating the life I want for myself. Also, totally out of character, I did not make a plan for my birthday weeks in advance. Or even days in advance. With the day all but gone, I still don't know what to do for my birthday with anyone outside my immediate family. While I work on that, could you still do one of these things to commemorate my 25th trip around the sun*?
- Participate in the worldwide indexing event, especially if English is not your only language.
- If you live far a way from me, give me your address so I can write and mail you a letter! (Or bug me to do it if I already told you I would.)
- If you live nearby, bug me to get out of the house more. Or to have me invite you over to my place for a movie or ice cream or something. (Joining Team Mystic on Pokemon Go is not required, but is definitely a bonus.)
*There's a lot of "bug me to do this" kind of things, but I need other people to remind me to do the things I want to do more than the average 25-year-old, but I am accepting that I am not an average 25-year-old, even in the ways that frustrate me. I'm really bad at asking for the time I need to give you the attention and love I want to. Reminding me that you actually want that love and attention helps a lot from where I am in the early stages of 25.
Mail me a letter Brooke! ;)
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