C'est ma vie maitenant.

• I started my internship this week. I'm back at City Hall, doing all kinds of exciting filing, typing, and turning unused rooms into storage. (But mostly filing.) Turns out I'm being paid after all, and I can't describe how grateful I am that that is the case. 

• Pottermore. I adore Jo Rowling's wizarding world and the imagination that she put into it. Hurray for getting MORE of it. 

Yep. I'm in Slytherin. I'm okay with it. They have a bad rap because the story was told from the point of view of a Gryffindor, but I'm clever (or I like to think I am) and ambitious. It fits.

• Today I had an encounter that made me want to go home, watch (500) Days of Summer, and cry. Instead I slept until 8pm. Now it's 1:20am. I'm feeling better, but we shall see what kind of adventures I'll have while I get myself to try to sleep again before I get up to be at work at 7:00.

• In the meantime, I'll take a page from Liz's book and tell you what I'd do if I had won $640 million in the recent lottery. 
• Pay off my debts, and then my parents'. 
• Put myself and my brothers through school. They'd be on their own for mission money.
• Get myself a car. Nothing too fancy, though. Probably something like my "first" car. 
• Get myself a nice place in Upland or Claremont with at least one room lined with bookshelves.
• Buy my Pinterest closet. 
• Open and run a charter or private school for girls. 

Fixing It

July was a lot of hard work and hard times. While none of the actual stressors are going to change much this month, I will.

I am going to put my life back together and I will return to Rexburg a happier person than I am right now.

Part of my plan is to record something little every day to mark my progress. A lot of the things I'll be doing at first are probably no-brainers, but I've got to start somewhere to reign in my stress and fight my depression.

Day One: Set Goals.


I'm done at City Hall on the 25th and at Baskin-Robbins on the 30th. That means four more 6-day workweeks (most likely). But I'm not just going to survive them. I will thrive! I will enjoy them! I don't always believe it, but I know I deserve to be happy, so I will pursue it.

Fine, I'm Going to Complain A Little.

This week was STRESSFUL, complete with drama, dented cars, and 45 hours of work between two jobs. It's been a good weekend, but I'm still exhausted and aching. So I found little ways to keep myself together, because this summer is starting to feel like last summer, and that is the last thing I want in all the world. 

I bought myself sunflowers because they were on sale.

A little bit of ibuprofen. 

Too much TV.

A trip to Victoria Gardens with our exchange students.

Lots and lots of prayer. That's the main one right there, because Heaven knows that I haven't yet learned how to handle stress well, and I cannot do it by myself. 

And to make up for the complaints, I will count my blessings.

No one was hurt in the car accident.

I only cried once, and that was just over a false alarm.

I still have family and friends who love me.

HelloGiggles exists.

I bought my textbooks and I want to read them this summer to make Fall semester easier.

I only work 39 hours this week, and not at Baskin-Robbins until Wednesday. 

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY ON FRIDAY.

I feel like I should write tonight, but I don't have much to say. So here's a sampling of what's going through my mind right now.

• Papers to write.
• Time with the Morgans this weekend.
• Will there be room in the car to bring my guitar and my computer home?
• Joseph Gordon-Levitt
• Maybe I should get myself dateable so that I don't have to have TV boyfriends or husbands.
• "C'est Bientôt la Fin" from Mozart l'Opéra Rock
• I paid extra to have Mozart l'Opéra Rock shipped faster, then I accidentally had it sent it to my parent's house. -_-*
• I hate that travel costs money. Otherwise I would do it all the time.

Okay, good night.